Primary Program

I forgot to add this in... On Sunday Jackson said this in Sacrament and his primary had a party after.

Cameron and Jackson

his buddy

deep breaths

I say this not without taking lots of deep, deep breaths.  At my most recent ultrasound, we went in excited to see our twins since our last ultrasound was weeks ago.  Earlier that week I was cramping a little bit and had a bad feeling.  The doctor began the ultrasound and saw that Twin B no longer had a heartbeat.  It broke our hearts.

Twin B had some swelling around it's heart.  We had a 3-D ultrasound following up and the specialist said the baby had just died within days of this ultrasound since both babies were the same size.  He also found that twin B was a boy.  It broke our hearts into so many pieces.  

Twin A is looking really healthy and strong which helped ease the pain but just had me on my knees, praying for twin B with all my energy, hoping that there could be a miracle.  In times like this, I'm reminded it's not in my hands, but in Gods.  I told Him I would do whatever He wants me to do, because it's not my will but His.  It is so hard sometimes to give up your wants over what is suppose to happen, especially when it's out of your hands.  Floods of memories came back to when I was pregnant with Isaac, my first baby boy, those sad doctor appointments leading up to his birth and then death.  Ever since we had the news that this pregnancy was safe, that there were two, I felt like the news was too good to be true.  I am use to trials, I can handle trials so this seemed more normal to me, or maybe it's the fact that I have realized I chose so many trials before I came here.  The story of Job in the scriptures is what holds me together in sad times like this.  What's the hardest part of it all is seeing my sweet husband feel the pain.  I wish I could take that pain away from him so he doesn't have to feel it.  We loved this little boy and still do.  We have no idea the reason or the purpose of this, but we know everything is going to be okay.  

The few friends I told were so sweet to visit me and set this centerpiece on my table, bring me food, bring me flowers, send me gifts.  I have felt so much love.  Through trials we find the silver-lining and also people can find ways to help each other.  I'm so grateful to be surrounded by wonderful family and friends.

World Series + UCLA game

One of Brady's faculty members invited us to some good seats to one of the Playoff World Series games Dodgers vs. Royals.  The feeling inside the stadium was pretty great - so many Dodgers fans with a packed stadium.  Everyone had their blue towels.  It was so last minute and am glad we went.  We also went to the UCLA game against Utah.  UCLA lost - so we kind of felt like we were bad luck.  We went with our friends the Brady's and had a good time.  

It was General Conference weekend and we circulated 

pictures of sleeping Lundquists to each other. 

We weren't together at all but loved these sleeping pictures.

Weekend with Jackers

During the week when Jackson wasn't here, I felt so motivated to grocery shop. I haven't shopped in so long, I have had so many friends helping me out in this department or Brady picking up groceries, so I had to document my progress - see all of those bags? I felt so productive.  Also see this picture of Elise, me and Mitchell?  I think we need to re-do this for Halloween one of these years.  We thought about it last year but Elise was pregnant and then thought about it this year but I'm pregnant, so maybe next time?

Jackson came back into town!  The weeks fly by when I'm not able to move much and always sick.  I took him to get hot chocolate only because it was cold and rainy for a change.  We went to Dicks Sporting goods to pick up soccer gear. We then grabbed Hook Burger before coming to go to his soccer game. I did snacks and thought of making watermelon on a stick instead of orange slices.  The kids loved it.  

These kids are athletes.  Always aggressive with the ball and they won again! 

After, Jackson still had so much energy so we took his new ball to the park to play some more with Brady.  These two could do this all day.  

We came back to swim and clean the turtles case.

We then took Jackson and his friend Kelliah to the movies - Boxtrolls.  They loved it.  Kelliah was given $20 for the movies and always gets a treat so we let Jackson get some snacks too instead of getting dinner. 

Sunday was its usual busy but then relaxing.  Jackson always has me sit in the back with him when we drive and most of the time I do.  This time he fell asleep on me on the 20 minute airport drive.  I just love his little boy moments that he holds on to as much as he grows in inches through these years, he still remembers what's important.  Sure love this boy.  We hated saying goodbye.

End of September

The rest of our weekend with Jackson was busy but so fun!  From waking up at 6am to go surfing with Jackson and Ryder and Brady that got them breakfast, set it out in the car for them.  The boys felt so special. Brady was a groomsman at his old roommates wedding and I was suppose to be at the temple but Jackson had his soccer pictures and a game, so I took him to those two things.  I had no idea I would be in the pictures being the team mom - I was feeling so sick and bloated that day.  Jackson's team won!  After the game we all went to Palos Verdes to watch the ring ceremony and the reception.  It was so fun watching Ky and Dave get married and see so many friends at the reception.  Everyone was congratulating us for having twins and excited for us.  Jackson was the proud older brother walking around telling everyone he gets two.  We came back to watch my friend kids who are both Jackson's friends Ryder and Lyla, so we put a movie on, played games and I fed them dinner.  I was so sick and so tired.  It was a fun day!

On Sunday we hung out and went to the park.  

Announcing the Twins to Everyone

We wanted to announce to everyone we were pregnant with Twins the day Jackson was coming into town and we also had a friend's wedding so we didn't want Jackson to hear things from people asking me if I was pregnant before we told Jackson.  

Here is the video:

We picked up Jackson from the airport, so excited to tell him.

We went straight to dinner at our favorite place, Tender Greens. 

After we ate, Brady video-tapped him opening up his presents.  He wasn't sure why he had presents but was happy regardless.  

The first present was a cell phone. We wanted him to be able to call us anytime. He was pretty excited about it.  The second gift he opened was a Twins shirt!  He didn't know why it was so special.  Then he opened the last gift, a frame of the twins and said, "Oh, is this me?"  We laughed and said, "Its your brothers or sisters or a brother and sister!"  His next reply was, "You're pregnant??? .... ahhhhh oh my gosh!" He was so happy.  He did a shaking head thing really fast.  It was so exciting!